Thursday, April 29, 2010


To those who are married, .. Not married .. and
soon to be married, I hope you will be touched with this story...


When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and
said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly.
Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know
what I was thinking. I want a divorce.. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly,

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the
chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't
talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what
had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory
answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just
pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated
that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent
ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for
her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I
had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of
me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a
kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several
weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something
at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell
asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not
care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want
anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce.

She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a
life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a
month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to
recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of
our bedroom to the front door ever morning.. I thought she was going
crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions.. . She laughed loudly and
thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to
face the divorce, she said scornfully..

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was
explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we
both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy
in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to
the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in
my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about
the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my
chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I
hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she
was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair
was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I
wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy
returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was
growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry
her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few
dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my
dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so
thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her
heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out.
To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an
essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer
and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I
might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms,
walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her
hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly;
it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held
her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I
held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the
door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked
upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not
want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead.. Do you have
a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I
won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I
didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each
other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on
our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed
the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my
wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and
wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I
run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a
relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the
bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot
give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend
and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a
real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they
were to success when they gave up.

maritime tech systm :)

si dia ade paper...hehe
maritime techo system!
gudluck syg!!!
smoge dapat jawab n fhm ape soaln nak.. :D

nokia 1100 to SE w715 :P

arini best sgt2!!
sbb pe?? da abes paper microeconomics!!!
pastu smlm adik daku plak msg kat fb..
die tnye nak hp blackberry x..haha!
arge dlm 700-800 msia...
die siap kate ag nak blnje rm500..huhu~

tp malangnye kakak die ni x reti pki hp canggih2..haha!
wat membazir je.. :p
die suh plih hp pe yg nak..
so, daku yg agak segan silu ni mintk la die suh cr hp yg ade 3g..
cam yg ok.. n leh ltak lagu n all la kan..
basic stuff~

so die bg idea untk choose btween w715 n nokia 6600i..
daku tau daku da ketinggalan zaman..
tp itulah daku.. mgkin daku pki hp nokia 1100 lg kot~
hp SE daku xgune.. idup dlm beg je..haha!

arge kat sane dlm 85 korg calculate la k??
murah gler! haha!!
daku ingt nak bg duit kat adik daku pas daku blk umah untk ct ni...
tgk2 die da belikan..haha!!!

nak tau die beli mane 1?? yg SE lor~huhu

adik daku pun beli hp untk ayah daku n mak daku.. :D
tq adikku!! sayang kamu!!!
balik cpt! mish u so damn much!

p/s: nxt sem hp ku berwajah baru~
xtau mane 1.. adik ku x bgtao~
xpe, biau lambat asalkn dpt~ :P
*SI DIA pun ngah pki hp baru gak..hikhikhik

Monday, April 26, 2010


daku mcm nak beli cntct lens.. huhu..
try la tgk pilihan2 ni..
korg rs mane yg sesuai ngan daku?

well... honestly..
daku ske purple n green~ haha!!!
namun bgitu purple ni hnye untk manusie x de power je~
rabun ma~ :P

btw, korg rs ok ke daku pki cntct lens? :(


daku nak ckp pe arini ek???
arini da settle 1 lg paper..
alhamdulillah.. :)
mintak2 la dpt score kan..hehe...
pasni daku nak kne ambik paper microeconomics plak.. huhu..

btw, arini daku da dpt $$$$..
hepy2!! da lm tunggu ni! :D

tp kan.. si dia ngah skt tekak..
sian si dia.. :(
daku x de kat sisi si dia...
nak jage si dia..
sdey sgt dgr sore si dia..

tp alhamdulillah..
lega dpt dgr sore si dia..
smoge si dia cpt sembuh..

doakn si dia cpt sembuh gak ek! :)
tq kawan2!

daku syg si dia! :'D

Sunday, April 25, 2010

esok paper stats! :)

yeay! daku da abes paper yg ke2 arini! cam da lame je exam..
tp.. baru 2 papers abes? haha!
itulah hakikatnye..ngee~~
esok daku ade paper lagi..

paper ape kwn2??

daku ske subject ni..
sbb inilah 1 1 nye subject yg melibatkn calculation sem ni..
*byk ar..invest tu nak ltak mane??
x.. subject full calculation is statistics..
investment tu half clculation..half theories.. huhu

doakan daku lagi ek!
ngan kwn2 daku skali yg akn ambik exam ptg esok.. :D
time kaseh kawan2!!!

Saturday, April 24, 2010

smile jom~ :)

daku ingin senyum je..
mcm ni~

:D (^_~) (^_^) :)

sbb ske ati daku la.. hehe..
saje2 nak syum.. snyum kan sdekah..
dapat ilangkan nervous..
dpt ringan kan otak dr pk sgale mslh..
smue la.. hikhikhik..

syum slalu kawan daku~ :D

Friday, April 23, 2010

daku bahagia.faham x? ;P

yeay!! smlm saje je x berblogging~~
my bloggie mish me x?? ngee~ :P

well..smlm daku blaja macroeconomics ngan effective nye~ haha
daku x tau nape la kan..
wlpn ni tgh tyme exam.. tp..
daku hepy n rs bhgie je!!! huhuhu..
nape ek?? ntah la kan.. :P

tq kpd si dia yg slalu tman daku!
bhgiakan daku! hepykan daku! yes3!!

p/s: tq my dear.. i love my 100th entry.. :)
nnti yg ke 200 plak k syg buat.. haha! :P

Thursday, April 22, 2010

entry ke 100 mupija~

entry ke 100 mupija~

A minute is eternity
when you are not by my side
i seem to have no remedy
to cure this love of mine
ever since your face i saw
i couldn't think of another
it was like an addictive drug
it feeling like nothing other
Its this incredible passion
that grows and grows each day
that makes my heart skip its beats
that makes me wanna scream to you
that i need you here close to me
i hope this poem somehow touches you
and makes you understand that i
wanna be your one and only
the one that always there
and will never make you cry

from : mr smooshy
to: mrs booty

i love u with all my heart and soul..

ade sape2 yang x clear lagi?? :P

im in a relationship with Mohd Izuan Mohamad.
he is my other half.
he is my everything.
i love him.
i have locked his heart into mine.
i threw the key away.

he loves me.
he has my soul.
he will never let my soul out.

i love myself.
cause i think im cute and great.
i have something i can proud of.


ok. noktah. mupija...study3!

daku ngah sdey...
np??? sbb.., daku kne study..
si dia? si dia nak layan episode 18.. VAMPIRE DIARIES.. :(

cpt la jmpe.. nak ambik smue episode2 tu..
jilos gler!!! uuuuwwwwaaaa...
si dia ckp nak layan catherine jap.. ish3~

ok. noktah. mupija...study3!

p/s: poning den blaja stats ni :P

kebersihan itu separuh daripada iman..

ape korg rs if housemates sndiri x jage kbersihan?.. :(
sdey kan.. haih..
ade ke ptt die buang tuala wanita die cm2 je.. :(
bkn nak merungut..
tp ade la kami 3 org je yg wat keje dlm umah ni..
sapu sampah..
buang sampah..
buang plastik sampah dlm bilik air..

bkn nak merungut..
tp nape la diorg x btnggungjwb..
if kbersihan sndiri x jage..
cantik camne pun buruk gak kan?..
xbest la camni.. :(
geram tau..

bkn diorg xtgk yg daku n 2 org lg kawan daku slalu kmas n buang sampah..
haih.. geramnye..

p/s: Ya Allah..tlg la tgkatkn ksbran hambaMu ini..


waaaaa..mamat 2 da nk blk..
paper 4 today da settle..
tggal ag 2..
gap gler plak 2! haiyak! jilos2!
pape pun.. si dia oit~ balik la cepat..
x sabau da ni nak merase $$$$$ :P


Wednesday, April 21, 2010

mahkotaku~ :P

well.. daku usha la internet td..
pastu tgk rmbut2..haha!
rmbut2??? xde la..
sj2 usha.. cam minat tgk rmbut2 diorg ni..
daku ske rmbut yg curl.. ikal2 g2..
xsuke distraightenkan~ :)

ni la contoh2 rmbut idaman daku..
cam best je kan???
cam nak je wat rmbut camni.. haha!
angan2~~ :P

p/s: 1 ari nnti mmg daku teringin nak g salun n wat rambut cam kat ats2 ni.. :P
dye??? na mungkin he~

kesukaan daku~

daku nak ckp ni.. sbenanye da lame nak ckp..
pasl daku mint gler VAMPIRE DIARIES!
tp bkn novel la.. daku ni xreti bc2 novel ni..
page 1 da kiok da~ :P

daku tgk mvie je.. si dia yg bg..
tp daku ade smpi episode 10 je..
skang ni da smpi 17-18 if x silap..
cite ni best gler gaban tau!!!
korg tgk la tau.. xpun bc novel die!

cite die psl vampire la..
hansome wa ckp sama lu der~
si dia pnah ckp..

"kan best if jd vampire..eternity.." :p
mmg la syg oi~ tp.. kne isap darah je..
xbesh.. nak mkn KFC.. ns grg smue tu.. :P
pastu si dia ckp gak.. if si dia jd stefan.. daku jd pe plak??
daku ckp la .. jd catherine ke.. jd yg sorg lg 2~ *muke same.. zmn berbeza
tp si dia ckp.. jap2.. nak pk sape lg hot~
mekngong! :P

p/s: daku ngan menunggu si dia ct..
bleh aku pow episode2 laen.. hikhik..

gudluck syg!

sorry2.. lupe plak nak wish ni..
arini die ade paper..
kul 2 ptg ni.. huhu

ssh subject tu..haih..
xpe2.. chaiyok2 syg!!
daku akn sntiase mendoaknmu agar dpt mnjwb ngan tenang..
n diberi pemahaman ttg soaln 2.. :)
i'll be waiting for u!

p/s: i'm SO eager to write the 99th entry.. u know y syg~ :p

study tyme~

daku da cte psl ltr blkg daku kan???
pelik tp benar..
pttnye cte tyme awl2 dlu..haha!
nak wat cmne.. tuan empunye bloggie udah kelupaan~ ;P
amacam??? if korg ade pape nk tnye psl family daku..
daku on je.. tnye je pape.. hikhikhik.. :)
okies.. daku nk study macro economics jap ek!!

my parentss~ :D

ni nak cite plak psl my daddy, mummy n ibu terchenta!!!
ade x muke daku cam diorg smue ni??
korg tgk la kay??
daku ltak la bbrape gmbr untk tatapan..hikhikhik
daku syg mereka smue!
diorg da lahirkan daku..
didik daku..
bg mcm2 kat daku..
xpnah diorg abaikan daku..
sntiase doakn daku stiap mlm dlm solat hajat diorg..
i'm sorry for not being a gud daughter of urs..
tp daku akn cube buat diorg sntiase hepy, bangge n insyaAllah mnjadi anak yg solehah..

ni la ayah daku!
stapah @ salleh b. abu.
dlu ayh daku pengurus felda..
ms dlu..daku siap ade driver ag~ maid~
smue org knal ayh daku.. n pggil die BOS! hikhik
ayah daku skng ni da besare.. keje skang?
driver anta adik daku blk skolah n g tuition :P
luv him so much! ayah daku sgt2 pemurah orgnye..
he is the best 'ayah' in the world!

ni la mak daku yg tersyg!
name beliau bakdah bt budin..
daku syg sgt kat mak!
mak daku sister skang ni..
nurse plg best n baek pnah daku jmpe!
mak daku bkn seorg yg garang.. lembut aje!
kwn2 mak daku slalu jdkan mak daku tmpt luahkn perasaan..hikhik
luv u mak!! luv u! luv u!

gmbr ni untk korg tgk ibu daku..
name beliau salmah @ rahmah bt. khamis.
haaa! yg 2 la ibu daku!!!! sure korg tau kan yg mane?? hikhikhik...
sayang ibu daku sgt!
gmbr bwh ni.. gmbr emak n ibu daku! sweet x?


anak2 buah yg daku sygi~ :)

nak tunjuk kat korg psl anak2 buah daku okies~ :)
luv them so much..
rindu sgt kt diorg.. :(

ni la anak buah sulung daku..
name die nur aisyah izzati.. :) putih gevu~
bijak. daku n ayah daku slalu g anta lunch kat die ble daku ct :)

gmbr ats ni n bwh ni..yg pki bj merah kt ats, n bj biru kat bwh..
ni name die nurdini..
adik die yg pki bj wane pink 2.. nurdina.
comel kan? :)

gmbr ats ni name die nisrina nabihah~
ni anak buah no 2 daku after nur aisyah izzati.
pandai, terang hati, matang.

ni uwais syahmi! :D
satu2nye anak buah lelaki stakat ni.. encem x?
die ske bace doa2. comel sgt!

ni la nurin fakehah! anak buah bongsu stakat ni~ :D
rindu sgt kat die!!! sweet sgt minah sorg ni tau!

my siblings~ :)

hurm..daku lum knal kan my family members kat korg smue kan? hikhikhik..
act daku ni anak sulung dr mak yg ke2.. maksudnye??
daku ade 2 mak.. ngee~
my real mum daku pggil mak~
yg 1st mum, daku pggil ibu..
khidupan kami? bhgie sgt.. alhamdulillah!!!
syukur sgt2 sbb tuhan kurniakan kuarge yg plg best dlm dunie!
plg understanding.. supportive n mcm2 la!:D
daku bg korg tgk gmbr adik bradik daku.. ayah, mak n ibuku n anak2 buah daku okies??? :D

dimulekan ngan insan bename mazlan.
die along daku..hehe
sgt membantu adik2 beliau.
dlm usehe kuruskan bdn.. :p
da kawen n ade sorg anak.
duk kat seremban gak.. jd bank officer.. :D

ni kak ngah daku.
name die mazura.
now duk kat kelantan. lecturer politeknik. :)
da kawen n ade 2 org anak.
*sorry xde gmbr.. kak ngah daku xske gmbr diambil

ni kak lang daku.
name die mazuin.
sgt penyayang. sgt baek. sgt pemurah xterkata.
da kawen n now da ade 3 org anak.
staying in kedah skang ni, jd lecturer. :)

ni abgteh daku.
name die mahadhar.
die keje kat s.alam.. da kawen n bkl jd ayah x lame lg :)
kualiti kerja die sgt bgs. daku kagum
tp kedekut sket bab duit~ :P

ni kak cik daku.. anak bongsu ibuku..
name die maisyarah.
die ngah wat master in islamic finance skang ni..hehe
sgt power okies.. jeles2 :)
ktrg share susu tyme kecik2 dlu tau!

ni adik daku.. btol2 bwh daku..hehe..
name die? maziah.
die bljar kat UK skang ni.
sgt pemurah dgn snyuman n kewangan.
syg die sgt2! rindu sgt kt die.

ni plak my younger brother.. huhu.. name die mustafa~
die ni ske bersukan, sgt mnjage bdn.
rajin gler study. kalah adik daku yg pompuan tu..
tebalik plak prangainye.. terserlah ciri2 kepimpinan yg sorg ni.
adik daku ni pendiam, xske org bekasar kat die..
coz die pun x bekasar ngan org.

ni la my youngest sis~ munirah.
die ni ske gler tgkap2 gmbr + edit kaw2 punye2!
nakal gler~ mls nk g tuition. kecoh gler bdk nye. ske bekawan.
tp daku syg die..hehe

p/s: ni la kaum kerabat n ahli keluargaku!!! hehe...
ikut turutan ag tu~
daku je xde dlm list.. :P